How to lose a boy in ten days?

So here it is. Tuesday again. A week has come and gone. I wish I had eventful things to write about but nothing eventful has really happened. The boy and I are trying things again officially and he has been very chivalrous. He came to my bachelorette pad and took me out on a date. We watched movies and ate some health food such as pizza, bread sticks, and pie and then he spent the night. We went out to dinner tonight with his dad, who is in love with me and told me he wants the boy and I to go up to Maryland, his home state. He also told us that he would pay for everything, plane tickets, food, one night in a cottage on this vacation island and a room on his house boat. I was in shock. Ummmmmm although it’s a great offer and I would love to go, I feel like this is a commitment andddd I’m not a fan of that. Well....I don’t know what I’m going to do because I wasn’t even sure I was going to be with him for that long. I guess we shall see where things take us.

I feel like I’m still being a jerk towards him in our relationship again. I think I’m subconsciously getting back at him for hurting me and taking advantage of a lot of things. If I want something I expect to get it from him, not like materialistic things but for example if I wanted to go somewhere I will blatantly tell him and he will just agree. I think for all the selfish and inconsiderate things he has done to me I’m allowed to do what I want with him. I guess you can say I am in "Take" mode, right now I'm giving "Give" mode a breather. Hmm I don’t know what I’m saying really. He puts up with me. I don’t know why, but hey if that’s what he wants so be it. Boys are silly.