Going to the chapel and...

So I was right. Paul is scared out of his mind to confirm our relationship as a girlfriend/boyfriend relationship. He is more confused about what to do than I could have imagined. We worked together on Sunday and I overheard him tell someone that I was his girlfriend. On Monday I felt the need to bring up the fact that we are “just friends”. He felt the need to explain why he doesn’t want to jump into a relationship.

He is confused/scared/nervous/undecided/worried about: losing his job, finding a new place to live, our different political ideologies, our different faiths (2 branches of Christianity), how we would raise children. Yes, he wanted to know how we would raise children... But anyways the main point is he is worried that because of some of our differences, we may not work out.

Happily, we both have agreed that the only way to figure out if we would work out is to try it. He has encouraged me to ask any personal questions I may have. Finally... we aren’t just telling jokes and “hanging out”. I’ve already told him some personal things about myself (like my habit of not eating) and he is glad that we’re talking to each other and digging deep. Phew, am I relieved.

However.. he is still obsessed with the “I’m not married” thing. He even admitted that if he’s not thinking about me, he’s worrying about getting married. He thinks he’s way overdue to get married and says that since his last two relationships failed horribly he’s trying to make sure this one works out. (At this point you may be asking yourself: “Is Paul a 29 year old female?” And God, I hope not.) Basically, if I play my cards right, plan for a fall wedding ladies! He’s already talking about anniversary gifts he has planned, Christmas presents, plane tickets, etc. For those of you who know me well, this sounds very much like me. Again, I am not creeped out by anything he says or does and am extremely excited to pick out kids names. (He’s already decided on two)

So even if we don’t have a running title of boyfriend/girlfriend, I’m happy that this is going in a serious direction. Also, thank you to my support system for being there for me. I know I talk A LOT and although I want to talk about my relationship all day long, I also want to be sure to cover general topics we all can learn from about love, life, and ourselves and will try to do so in upcoming blogs. Happy Weekend! <3