Busy Busy Bee!

Hey-ya guys!
So, sorry my last post was way short but i've got so much going on. My boss for my internship increased my hours because i'm only working there till next thursday and she wants me to be there as much as possible before i leave. then on top of that, i'm going back to school in 2 weeks and when i'm not working, i'm going to dentist appointments(went to a cleaning today and they say i have a cavity and need to go back to get it filled next week),therapy sessions (twice a week), and laser hair removal (recruitment's coming up lol). i need to go shopping to buy clothes and accessories for recruitment and i need my teeth, hair, nails, and eyebrows done and on point. don't get me wrong this stuff is fun but can be time consuming. also, i'll need to start packing up my room and my life again because i'll be moving into my new apartment soon! everything's happening so quickly and there's lots of changes i'm trying to mentally prepare for, like leaving home again after being here and being used to having my family around 24/7 for the past three months. it's kinda scary, kinda exciting. and there's lot's to do.

In terms of "summer of love" stuff, well i didn't succeed. but i don't feel like i failed either. overall, i had a great summer. i was an intern at a really cool company, i spent time reconnecting with my family and building stronger relationships with them, now as an adult, and i learned a lot about myself through therapy and how to deal with anxiety and the new pressure's of life. i honestly feel more confident and know that i can handle it, whatever it is. i know that it sounds lame but i feel like i could talk to guys now, i'm not sure how it would be in practice, but in theory i feel like it's true. who knows? hopefully i'll be able to test that theory soon. probs when i get back to school. well i gotta get to bed, this whole working thing makes me tired. lol
xoxo Holly Golightly

P.S. guys i have our lists of our perfect 10's and i think it would be cute to go over them again so you can see if you ended up with what you wanted, now that you're all in relationships of some sort. so skype soon please!

I am so tireddddd

So Paul thought it would be a good idea to visit my family in SoFlo under the pretense that he might get a new job there. Yayyyyyyyyyahhhhhhhhh omgomgomg ahhhh whatamigonnadoooo?!

Also, I requested him to be my boyfriend on Facebook today. For some reason I am 99% sure he will not accept. Feel free to Facebook stalk the situation!

Unstoppable by Kat Deluna feat. Lil Wayne

Status Update

remains the same. see ya next wednesday.
-Holly

Too... Much... Caffeine...

Ok so I know I fail at life right now. I kept reminding myself yesterday that Monday means I have to blog, but... yea obviously it didn't happen. I'm going to say that it was because I saw Maverick last night AND that he slept over, so I just didn't have a chance to. But to be honest, I was basically free all day yesterday and still didn't get around to it.

Anyways, this past week kinda sucked because I ended up getting really sick last Wednesday and it has been just lingering around. What really made me mad was that on Friday, Mav and I had plans to go bowling, out to dinner, and had reservations at a comedy club downtown and because of my stupid sickness, I had to cancel. Granted I was starting to feel better, but with the hacking up discolored stuff (TMI?) I wasn't about to get THAT comfortable with him and assume he's be okay with my voice sounding like a man. But as a compromise, he wanted to meet up for some coffee instead of the long drawn out date plans. So I agreed and we met up at 8 and ended up talking there until chairs were being stacked to close up at 11! We finally decided we would leave and he walked me to my car. Then something very sweet happened. He went in for a kiss and I pulled away and said I don't wanna chance getting him sick. And he looks at me with his blue eyes and says "I'll take my chances..." (btw, I'm smiling ridiculously right now!)

Then fastforward to last night, Mav and I had plans to go see the new movie Inception which was an absolute MUST SEE of this summer!! Girls, go out and see it!! And after, I invited him in... I will spare you details but it was seriously the best night sleep ever! And I'm sure Zoe can attest, its not always that easy getting a good night's sleep when your with someone else... NO, NOT because your busy doing other things! Get your mind out of the gutter! I'm talking about just laying next to someone else, its can often be a restless night of tossing and turning. But not last night! It was wonderful! And then staying in bed until 11 when we finally got up and, you guessed it, went out for coffee :-)

Over all, I think last night made up for my crappy week.

This week on the Real Girlfriends of Podunk...

Sandy doesn’t address the “I love you” comment but blames it on Paul’s sleep-talking.

Paul’s evil ex-girlfriend, Bubbles, tortures Sandy!

Okay.. so no one is torturing me. But ladies, how do you deal with jealousy??

Bubbles writes on Paul’s Facebook very often. They laugh, they have inside jokes, she wears a bikini in her profile picture yet... he is with me, not her, I understand that. In fact, he left her for me. He told her not to move to Florida and broke up with her. So I win. But why do I still feel like I’m losing? These irrational fears are getting in the way of every day life. I’ve had nightmares that wake me up, I’m constantly checking Bubbles’ page, I’m questioning Paul’s loyalty, and I’m even upset that we aren’t FBO. I already know that I’m the jealous type, but I really can’t let this consume me!

How do you deal with jealousy? Whether it’s about an ex’s past, not getting enough attention from friends or family, or maybe just jealous of another person?
So far I’ve tried to ignore it, accept it, and surround myself with positive people when I’m in a bad mood because of it. Talks with Holly and my mom (surprise, surprise) have really helped me get a grip, but I still feel unfulfilled. I’d like to confront Paul, but I don’t want to cause controversy...


Beware of the Dog by Jamelia

Ga-Ga-Ooh-Lala

Hey Summer of Love Blog,

So...its mid july.still single. uh yep. this is awkward. okay.

The end.

-Holly Golightly

Zoe: Have fun, no worries. and um...be safe!
Jess: i am all smiles when i read ur posts. ur adorable. p.s. the title is for u :p
Sandy: i loved our 45 min convo a few days ago! i have an idea that we should switch lives for a day. In which you talk to boys for me and get me a date and i work out all of ur and paul's talks that are uncomfortable and i'll get them out of the way for u. brilliant? i think so!

Ain't no thang but a G thang.

Sorry Holly about this late post.

Not much has changed since the last time I posted. Things are still confusing, I am still confusing and confused and I just don’t know what to think of anything. I’m not sure if I should continue with what we have, what we’ve got is fun. Tons of fun. I just don’t want to get comfortable and have expectations. He is very affectionate and I catch myself thinking about him in my free time and I don’t know if thats a bad thing? I just wouldn’t think it would be a good thing to do because maybe he’s not thinking about me, now I’m starting to try and think about what he’s thinking about. The other night in bed I told him he was fun, he told me I was as well. We both asked each other why we thought we were fun, I replied saying “Just cause you’re laid back, chill, you don’t take things so seriously...” he replied “I think you’re fun because you’re not uptight like most girls, you’re different than any other girl I’ve met....and you laugh at all my bad jokes”. Um. I don’t know. Yeah. I would love to continue this, but I know I’m probably going to get hurt. I guess. Fuck it. I’ll have my fun. Who cares.

He and I went to get some froyo the other night and we shared one and he held my hand on the way back home in the car.

GAH!