Busy Busy Bee!

Hey-ya guys!
So, sorry my last post was way short but i've got so much going on. My boss for my internship increased my hours because i'm only working there till next thursday and she wants me to be there as much as possible before i leave. then on top of that, i'm going back to school in 2 weeks and when i'm not working, i'm going to dentist appointments(went to a cleaning today and they say i have a cavity and need to go back to get it filled next week),therapy sessions (twice a week), and laser hair removal (recruitment's coming up lol). i need to go shopping to buy clothes and accessories for recruitment and i need my teeth, hair, nails, and eyebrows done and on point. don't get me wrong this stuff is fun but can be time consuming. also, i'll need to start packing up my room and my life again because i'll be moving into my new apartment soon! everything's happening so quickly and there's lots of changes i'm trying to mentally prepare for, like leaving home again after being here and being used to having my family around 24/7 for the past three months. it's kinda scary, kinda exciting. and there's lot's to do.

In terms of "summer of love" stuff, well i didn't succeed. but i don't feel like i failed either. overall, i had a great summer. i was an intern at a really cool company, i spent time reconnecting with my family and building stronger relationships with them, now as an adult, and i learned a lot about myself through therapy and how to deal with anxiety and the new pressure's of life. i honestly feel more confident and know that i can handle it, whatever it is. i know that it sounds lame but i feel like i could talk to guys now, i'm not sure how it would be in practice, but in theory i feel like it's true. who knows? hopefully i'll be able to test that theory soon. probs when i get back to school. well i gotta get to bed, this whole working thing makes me tired. lol
xoxo Holly Golightly

P.S. guys i have our lists of our perfect 10's and i think it would be cute to go over them again so you can see if you ended up with what you wanted, now that you're all in relationships of some sort. so skype soon please!

I am so tireddddd

So Paul thought it would be a good idea to visit my family in SoFlo under the pretense that he might get a new job there. Yayyyyyyyyyahhhhhhhhh omgomgomg ahhhh whatamigonnadoooo?!

Also, I requested him to be my boyfriend on Facebook today. For some reason I am 99% sure he will not accept. Feel free to Facebook stalk the situation!

Unstoppable by Kat Deluna feat. Lil Wayne

Status Update

remains the same. see ya next wednesday.
-Holly

Too... Much... Caffeine...

Ok so I know I fail at life right now. I kept reminding myself yesterday that Monday means I have to blog, but... yea obviously it didn't happen. I'm going to say that it was because I saw Maverick last night AND that he slept over, so I just didn't have a chance to. But to be honest, I was basically free all day yesterday and still didn't get around to it.

Anyways, this past week kinda sucked because I ended up getting really sick last Wednesday and it has been just lingering around. What really made me mad was that on Friday, Mav and I had plans to go bowling, out to dinner, and had reservations at a comedy club downtown and because of my stupid sickness, I had to cancel. Granted I was starting to feel better, but with the hacking up discolored stuff (TMI?) I wasn't about to get THAT comfortable with him and assume he's be okay with my voice sounding like a man. But as a compromise, he wanted to meet up for some coffee instead of the long drawn out date plans. So I agreed and we met up at 8 and ended up talking there until chairs were being stacked to close up at 11! We finally decided we would leave and he walked me to my car. Then something very sweet happened. He went in for a kiss and I pulled away and said I don't wanna chance getting him sick. And he looks at me with his blue eyes and says "I'll take my chances..." (btw, I'm smiling ridiculously right now!)

Then fastforward to last night, Mav and I had plans to go see the new movie Inception which was an absolute MUST SEE of this summer!! Girls, go out and see it!! And after, I invited him in... I will spare you details but it was seriously the best night sleep ever! And I'm sure Zoe can attest, its not always that easy getting a good night's sleep when your with someone else... NO, NOT because your busy doing other things! Get your mind out of the gutter! I'm talking about just laying next to someone else, its can often be a restless night of tossing and turning. But not last night! It was wonderful! And then staying in bed until 11 when we finally got up and, you guessed it, went out for coffee :-)

Over all, I think last night made up for my crappy week.

This week on the Real Girlfriends of Podunk...

Sandy doesn’t address the “I love you” comment but blames it on Paul’s sleep-talking.

Paul’s evil ex-girlfriend, Bubbles, tortures Sandy!

Okay.. so no one is torturing me. But ladies, how do you deal with jealousy??

Bubbles writes on Paul’s Facebook very often. They laugh, they have inside jokes, she wears a bikini in her profile picture yet... he is with me, not her, I understand that. In fact, he left her for me. He told her not to move to Florida and broke up with her. So I win. But why do I still feel like I’m losing? These irrational fears are getting in the way of every day life. I’ve had nightmares that wake me up, I’m constantly checking Bubbles’ page, I’m questioning Paul’s loyalty, and I’m even upset that we aren’t FBO. I already know that I’m the jealous type, but I really can’t let this consume me!

How do you deal with jealousy? Whether it’s about an ex’s past, not getting enough attention from friends or family, or maybe just jealous of another person?
So far I’ve tried to ignore it, accept it, and surround myself with positive people when I’m in a bad mood because of it. Talks with Holly and my mom (surprise, surprise) have really helped me get a grip, but I still feel unfulfilled. I’d like to confront Paul, but I don’t want to cause controversy...


Beware of the Dog by Jamelia

Ga-Ga-Ooh-Lala

Hey Summer of Love Blog,

So...its mid july.still single. uh yep. this is awkward. okay.

The end.

-Holly Golightly

Zoe: Have fun, no worries. and um...be safe!
Jess: i am all smiles when i read ur posts. ur adorable. p.s. the title is for u :p
Sandy: i loved our 45 min convo a few days ago! i have an idea that we should switch lives for a day. In which you talk to boys for me and get me a date and i work out all of ur and paul's talks that are uncomfortable and i'll get them out of the way for u. brilliant? i think so!

Ain't no thang but a G thang.

Sorry Holly about this late post.

Not much has changed since the last time I posted. Things are still confusing, I am still confusing and confused and I just don’t know what to think of anything. I’m not sure if I should continue with what we have, what we’ve got is fun. Tons of fun. I just don’t want to get comfortable and have expectations. He is very affectionate and I catch myself thinking about him in my free time and I don’t know if thats a bad thing? I just wouldn’t think it would be a good thing to do because maybe he’s not thinking about me, now I’m starting to try and think about what he’s thinking about. The other night in bed I told him he was fun, he told me I was as well. We both asked each other why we thought we were fun, I replied saying “Just cause you’re laid back, chill, you don’t take things so seriously...” he replied “I think you’re fun because you’re not uptight like most girls, you’re different than any other girl I’ve met....and you laugh at all my bad jokes”. Um. I don’t know. Yeah. I would love to continue this, but I know I’m probably going to get hurt. I guess. Fuck it. I’ll have my fun. Who cares.

He and I went to get some froyo the other night and we shared one and he held my hand on the way back home in the car.

GAH!

The Sweetness

I'm sorry that I left you all hanging yesterday. I know your probably all holding your breath wondering what is happening in my life lol ok probably not... but regardless, things have been going quite well on my end, with the exception of some roommate issues that still need to be worked out...

Things with Maverick and I have been going very well! We have been spending a lot of time together lately going out for dinner (or me cooking for him), going to the movies, and.... sleeping :-) He ended up sleeping over Sunday night and no, THAT did not happen. But he would randomly grab me to snuggle throughout the night and even woke me up with kisses. And apart from him telling me that I sound like a leave blower when I'm sleeping, it when great! But he did warn me that he sometimes will talk in his sleep, so I'm thinking some pay back may be necessary when I witness his sleep talking. Maybe coerce some interesting information without his knowledge :-)

There is one thing that I am kinda wondering about though... I don't exactly know where we stand. Like I know that I'm into him and I'm pretty positive he feels the same, but its just that female need to put a label on everything.... But also, there are certain conversations that I know are pretty important to any blooming relationship that need to be had. I just don't know how to start them. I just feel awkward... and also, like the questions about past relationships n stuff... I don't wanna come off as bitching about my most recent ex because it will come off as me not being over him. but even worse, I dont want to get emotional about it, which I still have been doing when i go to my weekly appt... i dont know what to do... gah!

but anyways, for the record, Maverick is pretty much the best cuddler I've ever cuddled with! And he says that I fit perfect when I lay on his shoulder. And he says that I'm gorgeous and beautiful at least every time I see him! He catches me off guard with all this sweetness! I'm just not used to it at all. But boy am I enjoying it!!!

Until next time ladies, love you all
Jess

Hallelujah

In Jesus’s name, HALLELUJAH! I have a boyfriend!
Let’s recap..

Friday: Paul meets my parents. Everything goes well.
Saturday: I meet Paul’s family. Success.
Sunday: Paul surprises me with a trip to a theme park. Beautiful fireworks, yet somehow he didn’t get up the courage to ask that night when he wanted to.
Monday: I see Holly :) Go to sleep around 2pm. Awoken by Paul knocking at the door 4pm. There with a dozen purple roses he says, “I wanted to do this different... I wanted to do this better... but I was wondering...”

Mission accomplished. Target acquired. Jackpot! Everything I’ve been waiting for.
If these few days haven’t been shock enough (Paul actually asserting he wants a serious relationship) a new development really threw me off last night...

First I feel it necessary to give you some background information.
Paul wakes up numerous times in the middle of the night to talk/mumble/poke me/tickle me/be funny/ and other random things that one should not wake another up from. i.e. wet willies
When Paul talks it either makes no sense or he rambles randomly or he talks about honest concerns he would never bring up while awake.

Woken up in the middle of the night, like usual, Paul is talking, and I’m trying to ignore him. I look at him, trying to get him to think I’m listening and Paul says, “I love you baby.”

Sandy: *sitting straight up grabbing Paul’s face* “What?”
Paul: no response
Sandy: *staring into his eyes* “What?”
Paul: no response
Sandy: “Are you okay?”
Paul: mhm
Sandy: “Are you sure?”
Paul: no response
Sandy: “Can I get you anything?”
Paul: no response
Sandy: *getting up to go to the bathroom*
Paul: “Where are you going?”
Sandy: “Water. I’m thirsty.” *sits in bathroom contemplating what happened* *returns to room*
Paul: “What’s wrong?”
Sandy: “Nothing”
Paul: “Where’d you go?”
Sandy: “I got some water. My throat was dry.”
Paul: “Come here.”
Sandy: *stays on her side of the bed*
Paul: “What’s wrong?”
Sandy: no response
Paul: “Come here.”

Sound like a soap opera yet? Was Paul sleep talking? Dreaming? No one knows... Especially not me. Tune in next week to The Twilight Zone.

Home by Michael Buble

Remember that one time...

when i went to our college town for the weekend and got really drunk and sick on the 4th of July. No? Oh well Unfortunately i do. well most of it anyways :/ . However, besides all that ridiculousness I did have a great time on my mini vacation. I got to see a lot of my friends excluding Zoe and Jess :( . i got some time away, saw an amazing fire works show and most importantly used a 3 and 1/2 hours drive each way on my own to really think and reflect on my life. i realized a lot of stuff that my brain has been trying to hide from me. sneaky sneaky. and it gave me some great insight. 1. i really hate being out of control. 2. my body is my temple and i need to get back in shape AND stop putting junk into it. cuz this weekend equaled junk food and alcohol festival. Also, dancing was and is a majorly important part of my life and i know i won't be happy unless i do it more often. 3. i have issues with my family that need to be discussed.


So, basically I got home and my dad, mom, sister, and i had a HUGE family discussion. which pretty much equals us crying histerically, minus my dad of course, at the dinner table. we got a lot out. all of us. and we got a lot off of our chests. In the end it turned out to be great and really freeing. We're working on our issues and things have started to change. For instance, today I spent the day with my mom, she had the day off work. we played "scene it" because we are both movie lovers and then we went to publix and she helped me pick some healthy foods for the week. Tonight my dad is taking us all out to see toy story 3, even my illusive sister is coming. I'm actually excited about it. I think this summer can only get better. I talked to Zoe and she suggested that I do more things with my time. So this week I'm going to look for more things to add to my spinster catalog. lol any suggestions are welcome and appreciated!


This "summer of love" is actually turning out to live up to its name. Just not in the way that i expected, maybe not the way any of us had expected. but there's no doubt that love is here. <3

-Holly Golightly

Relationships are messy and people's feelings get hurt.

Man oh man, ummm sorry bout last week guys, I've been a little....everywhere? So, let's just say ladies.....I am honestly having a summer of PASSION...and I am also sorry if that grossed any of you guys out (cause I know it most likely did). I am having a ton of fun, no worries, no stress, no expectations, but.....a little confused I suppose. As we all know, Collin and I are friends with a few benefits. We've still been spending a lot time together, well not really in the day, mainly when it gets toward the end of our days and we're done doing what we do in the day. We spend the night at eachothers places regularly and really just goof off. We talk a lot and make fun of eachother, watch stupid movies and whatnot. I guess when I say I'm a little lost is because of this : I've had a friend with benefits before and I guess each one will be different, but I just find this a bit strange. The last FWB I had last summer was strictly just kind've like this *ring ring* "Hello" "Oh, hey" "Wanna come over to my place and watch a movie late at night?" "Of course, be there in ten"......*Yawn* and out the door he goes or I go. No hangin' out, no conversation really, strictly business (please don't judge guys :/ )

Well anyway, here's the deal with Collin. He'll call me sometimes to invite me over for dinner, he invites me places (like the other week he invited me out with his buddies to go to the springs and go canoeing, where he flirted with me the entire day and afterwards we took a nap together), he also invited me to this wedding with him in a couple weeks, he texts me often (he was at a wedding this past weekend in Jax, he kept inviting me to go and while he was at the reception he was texting me the entire night telling me I should come up to the wedding, joking but still asking, we texted til like 2 am just saying silly things), when I went back home for the weekend he texted me "Hey bugaboo you left already?" (like what is that?) we cuddle a lot which is nice, sometimes he'll just come up to me and kiss me, he'll come over my apartment just to hang out (no funny business), he's come over and brought me a whole fruit and cut it up for me while I just laid around and relaxed, he texted me last night to see if I was in town while he was at work and we hung out and something was different...we hadn't seen eachother in a few days because we've been out of town and I was sitting at his computer and he just comes up and hugs me, he just recently he told me I was beautiful and I told him that was very sweet and everything and he replied that he needs to say it more often...I like where we are at right now and I'm totally fine with being FWB, it's not a big deal, but....I guess this just is different then what I was used to. I just don't know what's going on and I kinda don't want to know just cause again I like where we're at and I don't want to jinx things I suppose. It's like we have nothing and something at the same time. I do my own thing still and same goes for him.

Sometimes I wonder what is truly going on in his mind and what his honest intentions are...then I just think about ice cream and that thought goes away.

Happy Algerian Independence Day!

So I know this is another very late post, but it is the FIRST post from my NEW BEDROOM! This weekend, I FINALLY moved out of the shithole apartment I was living in with Sandy and others into a house! My room looks absolutely amazing, but it did not come without its stress! My mom came up for the weekend to help and although I really shouldn't complain because she bought me so much stuff for my room, she really was driving me nuts toward the end... But, she eventually headed back for SoFla and I started to get ready to see Maverick!! :-)

After all the stress about moving, it was awesome to just hang out and do something fun! So first we hit up Barnies (lets face it, he's pretty much a coffee addict!) and then we had some delicious food at Chili's. I'm glad that I can honestly say that we have so much fun together, even if were being complete dorks for the majority of it! haha But we can laugh at ourselves and at eachother and just have a wonderful time! And after dinner, we came back to my NEW PLACE and watched a movie. It was one that we have both seen before but we enjoyed making fun of it and jumping at all the scary parts that we knew by heart (ok, so I was the only one who jumped... )

But overall, it was a great night... obviously since its 3 AM... whatever, stop judging me

What the ef?

So if Paul wants to take it slow, why am I invited to his family reunion?? Boy knows how to send mixed messages.. ***roll of the eyes, shake of the head*** I could list all of the ridiculousness Paul has been spewing but it is not worth the time. I have decided to hang out with Paul and have fun for God’s sake, but if another available male comes hither I would not deny him! I have stated my deadline from the beginning of the blog: Paul needs to make a move by August. Tick Tock.

A man cannot be the end all, be all! As Holly stated, I will be taking time to be happy with myself :D

Zoe and Jess: Thanks for taking my class, I will have another one in two weeks! I know you are excited!

I Like It by Enrique Iglesias feat. Pitbull
Can’t Be Tamed by Miley Cyrus
Bulletproof by La Roux