Hey guys! Now I know we are supposed to write about our love lives on here but i'll be honest there is nothing to update you in that area. :( Over the long weekend I had fun at my play, hung out with some great friends and then celebrated my sister's birthday on monday. And just for those wondering, I am proud to say that the childhood friend was there and I didn't give him a second glance and am very proud of myself for that!
Anyways, today I am going to talk about my crazy life. Unfortunately I am no longer the "morning person" I used to be in high school. Although I somewhat resemble snow white, birds don't come singing at my window and help me prepare for the day. What actually happened was this. It's my day off and I want nothing more to sleep in but it's 8 am and I hear the lovely sounds of several lawn mowers and leaf blowers, LITERALLY outside of my window. So at 9 am when the sounds finally stopped assaulting my ears, I admit defeat (with the sun now shining through my window)and I get up and get ready for the day. I was pretty annoyed with it but it didn't bother me for long because a good breakfast does much to cheer me up :). What can I say? I'm easy to please!
In order for you to understand the next part of the story, I guess I should explain that I am home for the summer from college and that being with my family tends to make me more stressed than usual. I LOVE them dearly but it seems whenever I am around them I become the person I used to be and all my old bad habits, such as my bad temper, that I've worked so hard on these past three years to get rid off,comes back to me with a vengence. Simple things like patience, levelheadedness, and maturity for that matter lose all meaning when these 4 italians sit down at the dinner table. I want so much to be a better person that it kills me sometimes that I can't seem to keep my usual life philosophy's (happiness, calmness, hakuna matata etc )intact.
My main issues right now seem to be with wanting to be heard and validated. My parents, as great as they are don't seem to hear me when I talk and it bothers me to no end. I want them to recognize me as an adult and respect my opinions as such. But they are pretty much unwilling to break the habit of "do what we say, regardless of what you think, because we know what's best". Not to discredit my parents because they usually do know what's right for me. However, I have to say that they are stifiling my growth when they don't allow me to learn for myself and they def. don't make me feel confident when they brush aside my own opinions on things. I understand this is pretty vague, so here is a perfect example of what I mean when I say, "they don't listen to me".
Today I went to lunch with my sister and my mom on their lunch breaks from work. We went to Offerdahls and my sister stayed outside to get us a table and my mom and I went inside to order. The conversation went as follows:
Mom: What do you want to eat?
Me: A salad, hmm maybe a ceaser...no wait I want the greek salad!
Mom: Do you want chicken in that?
Me: No, I'll just have the greek salad, no chicken
MOM: Are you sure? I think you should get chicken.
Me: nope just a plain greek salad.
Mom: Chicken is protein it's good for you.
Me: Really, I'm good.
Mom: I'll order my salad to be big and you can eat the extra chicken mine has.
Me: MOM! I don't want Chicken! I just want a plain greek salad!
At this point I leave her and go sit outside with my sister and I try to calm myself and not get crazy over nothing.
My sister, seeing that I am distressed trys to calm me down a little so I relax, knowing that it's not about the chicken but rather a bigger issue that no one really listens to me or cares to acknowledge that I might know what I want for myself, best.
At last I calm down, thank my mom for lunch when she comes back with the drinks and I offer to help her get the food when the order is up. I walk over to the counter pick up the food and bring it back to the table. My sister gets her sandwich, my mom gets her big salad with lots of chicken (but is finally discerning enough not to ask if i want any) and I get a CEASER salad... which is not what I ordered at all. My mother finally heard that I didn't want chicken but didn't seem to hear me the several times I said greek salad. Like I said, no one listens to me. At this point, All I can do is laugh.
Here's wishing things get better. Praying that I will finally meet a guy(preferably one who will help me stay out of my house as much as possible). And Hoping that you guys are having better times of it than me. haha
-Holly Golightly
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So #1 Please talk to guys in random places! Even if it doesn't get you a date, it might get you a phone number, if not then a facebook friend, or a hook up with his friend, if not a really funny story to tell how you tried picking some guy up at the grocery store while you bought feminine products! #2 Stressful family... weird.. i'm unfamiliar with this type of situation... Anyways, I can only imagine how it feels having your decisions made for you (i.e. being set up with a hockey player whom does not speak the English). A positive I can see from this is even though they may not hear you, they care. I know you didn't want chicken but your mom CARED about your health. While I hope they let you have your own voice I also want you to know that they are babying you while they can and soon won't be able to as much so hooray for that!
ReplyDeletethanks sandy, i do now feel thoroughly reprimanded on all accounts. i'll try harder with the guy situ-ee-ation. i promise...pray for me?? hahahaha
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