Wishy-washy.

I am not sure if anyone knows this or not, but I am what you would call indecisive. My motto hmmm maybe not my motto but more so my response to everything and everyone is just “I don’t know”...and it is honestly because I really don’t. I don’t know how I feel about my life, life in general, love, relationships, people, everything. It’s madness I tells ya. I guess what I’m getting at is partially....dun dun dunnn....the boy. Oh, wow Zoe really who woulda thunk it. I know I know. I would get tired of hearing about this boy if I were someone else. To keep everyone updated I came to a realization last week. I was sitting thinking about what my plans were for the upcoming weekend, none of which included this boy. I didn’t purposely do it, but I caught myself. It went something like this “Okay so Friday I’m going to just hang out whatevs, Saturday I guess we’ll see, Sunday will be set for homework, Monday there will be a bar-b-q with Mav, Josh and Jess....okay sounds good”........a day later......”Oh wait.....there’s a boy in my life....I guess I should include him in this life....aw man...” Yep. I sound like a heartless bitch. I guess if you’re crazy about a person you would want them there with you doing things with you, sharing things in your life, yknow that sorta stuff. I guess the realization that I have come to was this: I guess I’m just not that into him. He’s been really kind, sweet, thoughtful, has tried his hardest to make up everything, but I feel like it....just...doesn’t....matter? So, he was supposed to come over today but I had a lot of things to do what with my car breaking down and that awesomeness. Yep. So I told him not to come over today. It’s always the hardest thing to hurt someone, but I have to do it....again. This summer I want to have fun, truly just have a good time as much as I can and if I’m not smilin every time I think about him....eh, that’s no bueno.

I like--no, love being by myself sometimes, doin my own thang, not givin’ a damn and what not and I’m not sure if I want to be with anyone right now. I want to be single but I do want to have someone to flirt with sometimes, cause hey why not?

I don’t expect you gals to respond to my post because I’m sure it’s gettin old, this back and forth way of thinking, but I know we need to be updated on everything :)

Holly---Talk to a boy. STAT.

Sandy---I hope things are still going somewhat well :)

Jess---Glad things worked out well yesterday, be care free and have fun!


And this made me laugh today.