So we’re making progress. Paul and I went on a date Saturday: dinner, movie, dessert, and had a great time. Now I don’t know how to bring up the “girlfriend” question to him. How long does a girl wait until the guy says something about being exclusive? I’m one of the most patient people I know and I’m giving him till the end of the summer to figure out if this is what he wants, but in the meantime what should I do? Introduce myself to his friends and family because he doesn’t? When people ask if we’re together say “No, we’re just friends?”
Something happened while we were at a bar this past Friday. Me, Zoe, and Jess decided we wanted to dance so we did. Guys approached us and to me they were drunk and harmless. Now Paul didn’t think that way at all. He was concerned because I didn’t try to get away from the guy. He was hurt because it looked like I wanted to dance with the guy. Truth be told I don’t ever want to dance with anyone but Paul. So when it comes down to it, I won’t dance with other guys because it makes him uncomfortable, but does that make me exclusive to him? Holly thinks I should address the situation but honestly I don’t think he knows what he wants from me just yet or maybe he does and is too scared to admit it.
Let’s look into the future. Far-fetched as it may be just go with me here. Paul is looking for a wife, he said this himself. I am looking for a serious relationship. I’ve always been an independent person. I know how to take care of myself, respect myself, and love myself. I’m looking for that other person to give all of this love to. To some it may seem that I’m wishing my life away but I’ve always been more grown up, if you will, than everyone around me. If Paul and I work out, and a couple years go by, he’ll be ready, and so will I. This has the potential to end up in a happily ever after. That’s why I think he’s not so sure of what to do with me yet. I’m trying to put myself in his shoes, and boy would I feel scared. I think for now I will give him time and reassurance. Honestly, we act like a couple anyways, so who cares if we aren’t FBO. If you’d like to do the countdown with me he’s got till August 22nd.
*On a side note: Paul always says the most ridiculous things about marriage and children and not in a joking fashion either so every time he says something like that I will include it because really? WTF? Sometimes I just would like to say that to him. What the f........
So I was really sick last night with an upset stomach and ended up in his bathroom. He was trying to make me feel better so I wouldn’t throw up or faint so he asked me to start doing “pregnancy breathing”. “Breathe in through your nose, and out through your mouth.” Yes ladies, he did this with me. He literally sat on the bathroom floor and held my face with one hand and held a washcloth to my neck with the other. He then proceeded to rub and pat my stomach and say “It’s okay, Paul Jr. is in there. We gotta make him feel better.” Most of you are creeped out right now, yet of course, I am not.
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