Hakuna Matata

Hey guys! I'm Holly (at least for this blog, I am) I'm 21 and an eternal optimist! Therefore, let me just say my life (and summer) motto - Hakuna Matata. No worries, be happy and all that. You can look forward to postivity and mushy gushy Disney fairy tale like blogging, every wednesday!

I guess I should start off by telling you that I absolutely voted to call this summer, the "summer of love" but not because I'm in love, or have any prospects for that matter. I wanted a summer of love because being in love is something I've never experienced. In fact it is my opinion that it is better to love and lost, then never to have loved at all. I know that I can't even imagine what it's like to feel the pain of losing someone you love in a break-up. However, I do know what it's like to be alone my whole life, to never be in love and be loved in return and trust me, it's not something I would wish on anyone. Still, I have amazing friends, you've met two of them already (Jess and Zoe)and you'll meet Sandy tomorrow. I have a great family and I go to a fabulous college where I am in a sorority that I adore (no matter how much I complain about it lol). I feel very blessed to have all that I do but before I get too "rain drops on roses and whiskers on kittens" on you, I must say that I do feel like there is something missing in my life. Yep, you guessed it, it's a boyfriend.

Being 21 and never having had a boyfriend is somewhat strange, I know this better than anyone, trust me, but knowing a fact and knowing how to change it are two seperate things entirely. My usual shy demeanor when it comes to the opposite sex is something that I've had for as far back as I can remember and the older I get, the harder it seems to break free from it. However, I refuse to give up hope on myself and I have decided it's time to take action in my life. Albert Einstein once said the definition of insanity is "doing the same things over and over again and expecting different results." Well dear readers, I refuse to be insane any longer. I can't just expect the perfect man to just show up at my doorstep and fall in love with me. So I am going to try something else. I am going to get up, despite the fears I have and make my life the way I want it to be. I no longer want to blame my circumstances, the people around me, or anything else for what my life lacks, I am going to take control and be responsible for my life and my happiness!

I decided that I should look at this problem like I would look at any other type of obstacle in my life. I can make goals for myself and try to accomplish them, step by step. So together with the fantastic four, I compiled a list of potential traits I want out of my "perfect 10" guy and go from there. I have the lists we all made at my house with me and I will remind everyone from time to time what it is that they want on their life so we can focus on our goals. If you can see it, you can achieve it, right? Preferably I am hoping that by focusing on exactly what I want, then he really will appear on my doorstep, so to speak. You know, "manifestation" and "Oprah vision boards" and all that. As far as taking action, I was assigned to talk to at least three guys this summer and report back to the fantastic 4. I know this doesn't seem like much but for me it really is lol, baby steps, people!

So, I guess we'll see how it goes. Wish me luck, guys! <3
-Holly Golightly.